In 2013, Jinkx Monsoon received season 5 of RuPaul’s Drag Race on the age of 26. Upon taking the crown, she was not, as she described herself early in that season, “Seattle’s premier Jewish narcoleptic drag queen.” She was now, within the parlance of the present, America’s subsequent drag celebrity. Over the subsequent decade, she’d tour the world, launch albums, begin a podcast, proceed to develop her drag persona, and ultimately return to the Werk Room to compete in RuPaul’s Drag Race All Stars 7, becoming a member of the “all stars all winners” solid of queens who had received their very own respective seasons of Drag Race or Drag Race All Stars.
This trajectory meant Jinkx was within the public eye in a approach she had by no means anticipated—and likewise, she says, in a approach she wasn’t prepared for. Over time, she drank extra as a approach to assist her address the pressures of stardom and to self-medicate her in any other case untreated anxiousness, OCD, and despair. After almost getting hit by a automobile whereas drunk in 2019 (after truly getting hit by a automobile whereas drunk just a few years earlier than that), Jinkx determined to stop ingesting for good.
As we speak Jinkx is about three years sober from alcohol (although she says she nonetheless makes use of hashish and stays “an enormous weed advocate”), recent off her All Stars 7 win (which included a very iconic Snatch Recreation efficiency, which I implore you to look at right here), and feeling good, grounded, and excited for what’s subsequent. She not too long ago spoke to SELF about her robust-as-hell (and intensely relatable) psychological well being observe, which incorporates remedy, video video games, witchcraft, and Grindr.
Right here’s Jinkx in her personal phrases.
This interview has been edited and condensed for size and readability.
When your life modifications quickly in a single day, and also you go from low strain to excessive strain or low profile to excessive profile, any underlying points that you’ve but to handle bubble as much as the highest actually rapidly. If you end up put beneath that excessive stress, belongings you thought you had a deal with on for a very long time, they only come to the floor.
I believe I’ve settled into who I’m now, and I’m actually assured, however that took loads of work. And I don’t assume I used to be prepared for this profession after I did season 5. I wasn’t prepared for being a public persona. I might’ve liked a crash course in that. Or you understand, like an evening faculty schooling on find out how to successfully be within the public eye.
As an actor who thinks that having the ability to take notes and critique is a vital a part of your work, I believed occurring Twitter and studying my Instagram feedback and studying Reddit threads was part of taking my critique…however what I discovered was the one factor it was affirming was my very own insecurities. My therapist stated that after I go in search of these feedback, it is virtually a type of self-harm.